spiralling downwards

the past few trainings have been very slack.
and its downright disappointing.

irony.
its a big thing.
Mega Perdana
yet, the guys are staying away from trainings.
why you may ask.?
save for the few commited ones, the rest lament abt the competition dates being to close to their examinations.
damn, i've been thru tt too.

its all a matter of time management.
ok fine, studies are your top priority
i wont challenge tt.

but for those staying away because of a few, measly, stupid, trivial problems tts been plaguing panjy, then, you are a big f****** loser.
right, go on blaming others abt the low morale in our group,
but by doing so, you are contributing to the dismal situation.

at least you can do is to show commitment,
and abt the morale thingie,
i think i can manage it.
try to source out the problem areas and try to deal with it.

come on guys.
this is it.
although we're not expected to win, the best we can do is to show what we're made of right?

there's another character among one of us.
let me tell you, not playing with us up there on the stage, doesnt make u any lesser a Panjyian.
come on, 'semua orang ade pasang surut dia...'
ok bro?
and abt the incident, rather accident, i'll pray for the best
hope there wont be any serious implications.

sigh.
i'm not being egoistic
but somehow or rather, me, not being with the guys as often as i used to, have failed to keep them together.
my absence seems to have affected the bond/spirit among us.
and i feel it for myself too.
keep thinking of you guys whenever i'm in camp.
and thanks Hakim, for bringing the guys over for the AVP movie screening.
really appreciate tt.

ah, i have the nights off today, cause i have a medical appointment tmrw.
so tmrw i'm not werking,
just tt i'm booking in at 2359 hrs tmrw night.
yeap, and no training tonight.
sigh.