losing it bit by bit

it's been a while.
rushing to and fro camp and trainings.
as usual.
taking a toll i must say.
lethargic and spent.

the last week was marred by abysmal attendance .
and the so called 'pep' talk the other day,
i guessed it didn't help much.
i can see that you guys are still being indifferent.
nira is kinda stable, but, damn.
my karut is pulling out from the team, and its a week to competition date.

wtf.?
leeway given, doubled with preferential treatment for my key players.
what more.?

damn i have a heavy task at hand.
and theres still haising.
which i and hakim took over halfway through.

and panjy.
and work.

anything else to add on.?
pls do.

like i said.,
'i wanna run away...'