The Pedestrian

something that we had in common. WE. but its all in the past.

what are we chasing for?

working my ass off has never been a problem for me. although i used to be able to spend time with the people i love, marginally at least, even when i was doing 13 hrs a day. like i said, i used to revel in the company of friends, but now with time on my side, i find that company fast disappearing and im not complaining. my prayers go out to all those i care and love. may you guys and gals be happy always.

putting oneself before others might seem selfless, but disappointment sets in when you start to expect the same thing done for you. well, i guess life's unfair, when i do things i find that i take into consideration the interest of others, but things might not be the case for me in return. i have learnt to accept this as part of life, tho it hurts. oh wells. i am egoistic. i admit. yes ppl can confide and seek me for help, but when i am having problems, i cant seem to go to anyone for solace.. why..? maybe im too proud.? i guess i am.. a godbrother once rebutted me by saying " i dont need a friend who thinks that he's always right." probably its true, but i believe i am more passive nowadays. u can win your argument for all i care, i'll just accommodate you and let you have your way. is that detrimental to one's character or self-esteem? i know for the past 6 years i have been doing the cajoling and persuading. and have always been bottling up my frustrations. but somehow those frustrations just fizzles away... thank you God for allowing me not to keep these negative emotions within myself.

i figured out that maybe these plethora of emotions finally made me numb to disappointment and numb in accepting the fact that i am in a limbo of not being able to resolve everything that is hovering in my mind...