the parody of it all.

been thinking about our existence.
our as in panjy.

the general public must be tired of reading about my ramblings on panjy.
well, bloggers united, this is my space.

panjy
what does it personifies ?
what does it symbolises ?
what does it exemplifies ?
what does it means, to each and every one of us.?

always thought we were one.
stand tall, took pride in knowing we had a unique friendship.

what it took to send us crumbling was a trojan horse.
something within us.

put that aside.
wounds heal, but the scar remains

You.
we stuck together, knowing You had worked hard to get this group where it is today.
and in Your absence, we worked harder, to cradle the already fragile pieces of panjy.
even if You do not give us credit, why should You criticise the way we handle ourselves.
the one person You left in charge. i thought You had him to succeed You in the group, knowing he had the maturity in handling decisions and to undertake the responsibility of the guys.

and.?
You had to downplay the fact that the se7en, in fact had commited an immortal sin . and You were willing to forgo that particular fact.
You were the one getting all uptight about freelancing thingie with SW.
and now, You are contradicting Yourself.

with acceptance, comes trust.
5th December.
let's see, which show will they prioritise.
Tampines Central CC, or.
Sri Warisan.

Nor Hakim.
i still believe you had done your part very well.
certain instances can be demanding.
but it's called for.

to You.
do whatever You deem fit.
it is Your group anyway.

requested entry

ok shasha.
here it goes

rockets.
was over at simpang bedok on malam raya
was with dwi, monis, azreen, shasha, linda, janah, yanie and sham
har har.
had supper, and yanie came along with sparklers.
dwi looked every inch the terrorist.
with his snowcap, and ' mat kotai ' face, lol.
he was preparing the sparklers for the rockets.

and we went back to tampines to play with e rockets.

initially, me and monis were the brave ones
ahakz.
the rest were contented to just stand far far away.
har har har.

indeed it was spectacular.
the last one we did, it went off with a big explosion.
and everybody ran off in different directions.
ahakz.
for fear of getting caught.

reached home at around 6 in the morning.
met up with the guys for solat aidilfitri and had our customary breakfast at McD.

the ferst two days went by just like any other normal hari raya.

now i'm at camp. as usual, slacking.
will be updating later. going fer a nap.
;)

and yahz, panjy will be going to KL and Tioman.
on the 29th of this month. tag me if interested.
ta~

to reach 22 years of age is an achievement.

it has come again.
that time of the year.

happy birthday to myself.

gave myself a birthday present.
changed to TT900.
my tyres, that is
:p
and to a DID ring chain.
new sprocket too.
and got maseLf a pair of pLayLiFe grips.

it totalled up to 150 bucks.
wow.
getting broke soon.

the day was spent at home during the good part of the day.
and in the evening, the whole family went to johor for breaking fast.
Hotel Blue Wave.
not bad uh.
hee..~

and on to Holiday Plaza, got some games for the XBox.
and then sent MeGerL home.
had a mini celebration under her void deck.
grr!
my birthday is today, hers is next week.
but hers got celebrated.!

ahakz.
no worries.
just contented to have my family all around me.

and to my bros, thanks for the company on wednesday night.
sitting with you all, with sheesha makes me feel at ease.
+smiles

so after johor, reached home at around midnight.
grabbed my helmet, and off i went to meet up with monis and dwi.
fyi, dwi is a guy
ahakz..

so we slacked.
until 4 plus.
and here i am.
monis.!
thanks yous very nice.
i shall be expecting my pressie very soon
ehehkz.

and to the rest.
the same goes fer ya.
har har har/

+yawn

shall be getting my dosage of slumber now.
22, and counting.

:D

it's raining tears.

been raining incoherently these days.
rather disturbing.

been wetting my pillow with tears
(sissy boy)

the memories are just too fragrant and comforting to be pushed back into my mind.
shrouded in obscurity.

iftar went well.
kudos to Mon, and hakim for the whole event.

3 siblings.
finally.
it has come to a point of time where we accept each other as family.

to my brothers, Panjy,
to tread softly, but surely now.
on a path, trodden by many.
adversities, differences, will be overlooked,
to embrace the new start, a new beginning.

where we can see now, jolted from our slumber,
friends. brothers. foes. stranger.

that's the order now.

to my sisters, Jentayu Sutera,
deep inside me, i am in awe.
and respect is ever present for you gerls.
with faizal's attention always being diverted to us,
yet,
you gerls never did once, give up.
and i, hope to further strengthen our ties.
we'll see about Nira aight.?

to my kid brothers, Kenca Tirana,
keep your spirit up.
and please, do not emulate your seniors.
because if that happens.
i will know when to stop teaching..

took the morning off today, and woke up at 1230.
blasted hp.!
did set the alarm for 10, but my phone ran out of battery.
grr!
so i took a quick shower and rushed to camp.
ahakz.,

so now, back at home.
contemplating to return to camp tonight or next morning.
i think tmrw will be fine.
cause, i;m meeting monis for supper later.

footnote - indra, nothing i've ever done to you is labelled 'sarcasm'
whatever i've given to you, be it, monetary cash, gifts, or simply, the care, concern and love, came from my heart.
you are the 2nd kid brother that i have, apart from ayul.
i see myself in you. but you chose your path. take care indra afdalash bin saini.