kuala lumpur, NS, and so much more

just got back
so this is my final blog entry for the meantime

kl was great
got some nice stuffs for myself.

got a few 'take care during ns' messages
one of them was from lenny
so be it

i realize tt i am making abrupt sentences.
or rather short summary of events, maybe so many things is in my mind right now
and letting it all out at once

so going to hrc later
last reggae night for the year
and meeting up with the andika bros
never thought i will be close to them

and missed out on meeting the panjy guys for soccer session just now
since i reached Sg late
kinda feel a bit sad

well, ahm booking out on thursday for deepavali
will meet up with them then

i have been thinking, my parents have made a lot of sacrifices for the family
and i am really thankful for all of them
they have been there all the time.

my mom especially,
still remembered the morning after, i broke up with lenny
going into her room, and telling her that i was no longer with her
and she really broke down
how can i help myself.?
i made my mum cry.
because of my own relationship problems.
she really loved lenny like her own daughter
and i cried with her

and now ahm gg thru another phase in my life without her.
*shrugs.
meet you later in life . tt thought i truly hold close to my heart

and meet you guys on thursday night if ahm not tired ya.
if not, another 3 weeks from now..

any panjy bros tt are reading this,
kirim salam to the rest
i love and will truly miss all of you

to all my frens, take care alright.

so i said

wish me luck guys.

bukit batok

back after a week hiatus

updates ferst on the comp the other day
well, panjy proved tt we're among the big guys now
so we'll just keep on maintaining the standard tt we have now.

this week has been kinda lazy fer me.
the idea is to live this week to the fullest since ahm gg next monday
well, alot of ppl mentioned tt shouldnt i be excited abt ns?
to me, its just another phase in life tt i have to go through
well, facing life without her is kinda hard
just learn to live with it

so coming to bukit batok, lol
got to know this gerl, fizah
went out with her twice this week.
and sent her back to bukit batok both times
ah, tts abt it
shes a nice gerls
well, all gerls are nice until they break ur heart right?

so i said

ahm gg KL this friday thru sunday
ahm gonna party and shop
enjoy myself and monday i am enlisted
so update again tmrw maybe
online with fizah ah currently
night

..... again

nothing much
have been sick for the past few days.
hrc on sunday, as usual.
was fun

went out on monday with camelia
slept thru the whole of tuesday, skipped work, cause i was sick
came back to werk on wednesday, and got totally drenched.
sick again

been skipping trainings too,
maybe i'm just too lethargic

brrr
just came back from 138,
with wan, munir and guest , shariff sah
lol, how did he came to be there, i dont know
but talked till 5.
now i am working later at 11.
so have to get some sleep already
morning.

............

been updating sporadically nowadays
basically, why.?
life's been a bore

working in the mornings, and just slacking at night
its 17 days to enlistment
planning to go trailing one last time
have to gather the guys one more time

so the last competition for me, is the one next sunday
see how ah..

today's my off day,
going shopping with my family, get the things i need for ns later
maybe upgrading my hp
get some disposable lenses
and gg out with camelia later in the evening
tts the plan.
but whether it materialises, i dont know for sure

i was on the line the other day with lenny,
and i posed her this question.
'have she got over me?'

' part of me has, but partly hasn't '

again, 7 months after and i know i havent.

pathetic.