the end of the road.


puspa dek sari.
nira nyer tika.

2001 - 2005

for me that is.

till we meet again.

come out, come out, wherever you are..

thank you, anonymous, for telling me -

(i) to change
(ii) to spend more time with the gerls
(iii) and that i have been given a chance.?

so i am given a chance.?
for.?
to say sorry.?
make amends?

i did say i wasnt that committed. read the last post.
but. i do come for all trainings.
even if i did not, my absence would have saved MAG some money.
correct.?

money isnt the problem here.
its just a bonus.

so tell me again anonymous.
how should i change.?

my teaching technique.?
i believe the way i teach schools spells success.

my attitude towards training.?
maybe this is a debate.
people may question my attitude. but what i know is that, i do not instill a sense of pessimism in my trainings. laughter is a must.

my commitment.? again.?
well, i apologise for my lack of enthusiasm towards you gerls during Khatulistiwa.
to deviate from the fact that i had just been discharged from hospital a day back, still does not justify my actions towards you gerls.

let me tell you sumthing.
commitment is an important thing no doubt.

ask yourselves.
the squad. how many were actually 100% Nira?

you expect me to bond with you, when every week, there are new faces.?

and that is just point (i)

to spend more time with you gerls.?

call me the next time you gerls go shopping.
aight?

and having trainings without my help doesnt help.

and point (iii)

so i have been given a chance to redeem myself.
let me see. ah.

i'm sorry for being a prick.
sorry for making the group to what is it today.

to qoute a dear acquantaince,
'tinggi tak minta di sanjung, rendah tak minta dipijak..'

and yeah. it hurts when my own gerls credit their win to sumone else.

its about time innit....?

commitment can be such a bore sometimes ey.?
not relationship-wise.
but to a certain group of people.

the people that may or may not look up to me.
that is entirely up to the individual.

you may give me credit, or you may not.
you may thank me, or simply shrug it off.

from nothing.
yes, you have achieved something.
and the way i see it, credit goes to another person.

and it has always been a one man workload since 2001.
people come and go.
i have come into contact with 2674938.0648 gerls ever since I founded the group.

numerous hours have gone into the songs that were sung.
and more hours for the pieces of paper with words on it.

i forced myself to learn how to write.
and disgrace myself, making up shitty songs.

just for.?
you .

well, i blame myself.
i'm not that really committed, if you gerls put it that way.
but when i do teach. I teach.

and i do achieve results.

yet.?

and to tell you plainly, the pay is peanuts.
i never, ever, since 2001, calculated every single hour, down to the very minute, for my attendance.

anything that was credited into my bank account, i am thankful.

and trust me, i dont mind coming down, even if you tell it was gonna for free.
why.?

you are my gerls.

the gerls i teach.
never mind if you dont look up to me.
never mind if you think i suck at this.
and never mind if you dont appreciate all that i have done.

i have a proven track record.

and this, you, are my group.
i built you. with my own sweat.

i'm sticking it out, because.?
of the above reasons.

tt's why i say commitment can be such a bore.
when one loses interest.

and its definitely not me.

'kian hapus ni tunggak.'

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antologi puisi.
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well, my mentor. just doing my bit.
*grins.
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and its a hardcover version.
great poetry, and awesome graphics.

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a dream just materialized.
when's yours gonna be.?

carwash..~

currently at the void deck @ shafiq's.
me, ayul, mamat, and shafiq, are slacking.
i just finished washing my bike. and mamat is washing his.

been slacking a lot these days.
indra just enlisted yesterday.
hopefully he's gonna learn to become more responsible.

he came back to us, just a week before he was enlisted.
mamat and me were like.. ermm. why the sudden re-appearance.?

and so, it happened tt he broke up with his SW gerl.
and apparently had sum problems with his guys over there.
but nonetheless, we're always here.
for you guys, yj-Nap.

spend the whole week with him.
late nights, catching up on stuffs,
there, there.
all the best bro.

its a very warm night.
maybe we ought to try a wet tshirt contest after this.
wuahaha..~

laters.

the one i'm gonna name isabelle



*grins.

waiting in anticipation.

late nights

ferstly. some pics up for viewing.



this is the Barney i bought fer her.
hee hee!



a picture of us during my cousin's wedding.

okay.
been out 2 consecutive nights in a row.

ferst night was just with mamat, sala, and shafiq.
we went to Bendemeer, just fer the chicken rice.
and proceeded to Boat Quay after that.
indra, sabri , yat and abu were clubbing.
they did ask us along, but ney..

oh, i was watching War of the Worlds
not recommended uh.
boring.

ok. and we picked up only indra and sabri.
simpang bedok for a very late supper.

and last night.
a better crowd i must say.

me, mamat, sala, anip, shafiq, din, indra, and guess who.?
my lil bro. ayul.!
haha
he managed to stay awake until 5 am!

after training, just slacked at salihin till around 11 plus.
asked hakim, shahril and fahmi along to changi. but they declined
so we went to changi fer nasi lemak,
and i brought them to 'Thundercats's' fishing spot and secret place at Changi coastal Road.

brought our bikes into a small stretch of wilderness, and voila.!

a breakwater, near the Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal.
spent a good part of the morning there. just talking, singing, shouting.
with the cool breeze awash on our unlit faces.

after being scared out of our pants by some cockroaches.
(they were aplenty in the crevices)
ahaha, we went to East Coast.
sabri was working. and we got free McCafe drinks!

til around 4 plus, and we decided to become a nuisance.
went to Longkang 6 carpark, and spied on couples making out/having sex in their fogged up cars.

wuahahaha....~

and tt ended our expedition fer last night.
it was an enjoyable outing.
thanks bros.

'eh, pantat dia ade tattoo.? bukan tattoo dia ade pantat.?' - anip
'goodbey!' (ape siak.. haha goodbye la siol..) -shafiq
'hang my photo on the wall..' (patutnye take my photo of the wall..) - aku

and many more.

and so these are the days of our lives.