go ahead

just had my shower
spot the word 'mood' in my previous entry
if u perceive heartbreaker as sumthing else, then tts ur problem

it is up to the general public to judge me for my actions
so i stepped on your toes?
ah.
does it hurt?

well, from now on, i'm gonna move on.
cant be bothered to step on anyone's toes no more
okay nanie?
tts ur name there

take care now

weekend is coming!
woohoo....

wham bam~

i got shot
and its just a graze
blargh~

tts precisely they coined the term 'sweet-talk'
u're not the first dont worry
been in this heartbreaker mood ever since i broke up.
like duh.
i mean really broke up

ok enough abt this
ahm not disturbed one bit
well, if you're violently happy today,
tts good then
the world needs more happy people.

so ahm back early today
had wdlands ring as usual in the afternoon
then had ma panjy exco meeting
a lot of issues were brought up
well, just sat there and absorbed everything without much talk

scumbag, asshole, bastard,
not very pretty adjectives ah?
well, couldnt care less ya

night night
gonna slack

#motoworld

almost fell asleep at 930 just now.
then made plans with the #mw peeps to slack at beach road
so i picked suherdy up,
met up with nonoi, ajal, lucian, mambo.
apparently we tricked nana into coming
she had a tiff or sumthing with ajal.
lol

then went to kachuak's place
slacked at jln tenaga
so ahm home now
off days tmrw, wednesday and thursday
concentrating on wdlands ring already
this sat is the competition

i dont know why is it so hard for me to accept new ppl into my life nowadays
and when i do, i break their hearts
have them asking me out.
4 of them
and all i want is to be around my frens for the moment

to the panjy guys, i'll organise one hell of a trip to sentosa okay?
we'll have fun , dont worry now

mama and papa knew abt my piercing already
and they took it rather well
just mentioned sumthing abt dont go showing off to their fellow jemaah haji or sumthing
during the wedding uh
this sept my bro's getting married

not to say that i have a good upbringing,
i admire my parents a lot.
but i'm young
so,
just living it up

morning

its a surprise i am home at this time
i was late for work just now
got back frm hrc at around 5
met the conquered.
me and another of her ex were fooling around on the dance floor
lol
i think that pissed her off uh
and dian was there too.
both of them
well, dian said she didnt 'pandang' me as a fren .?
*shrugs
so i lost a friend.
a long time friend at that
sigh

well, had fun .
danced like nobody's business
met up with lotsa old frens
on the way back, we were kinda racing
and saleh got into an accident
inside the CTE tunnel
i was doing around 140km/h
and saleh lost control of his bike

musnt take life for granted
and shouldnt be too foolhardy
sigh.
he lost quite a lot of blood
still worried fer him
lucky he could still make it back to tampines

pondering abt life quite alot nowadays
mama asked whats my plan after ns.
i told i'm going to NIE
but then again, feel like i wanna do sumthing else
but i just dont know what it is...yet.

agenda for the rest of the night?
slack, or supper later
daa

take me by the reins

ah, i smell so good
just showered
came back from tanah merah
its been quite some time since i went trailing
had fun uh just now
got ourselves all dirty
3 Xr4
2 Wr200
1 KTM200egs
1 KDX125

had fun.. lots of it
adventure was the case.
haha
ok, the date went fine
camelia is a sweet gerl.
just taking it as it goes

somehow, i feel that without external dk competitions,
panjy is drifting
because we are all too pre-occupied with our own things
i'll make a mental note to organise some outings or just chill out sessions

havent slept for 2 days now
billiard last night, i mean thursday night
until 6 plus in the morning
and reached at around 8
caught maself sum 40 winks
cause i had my graduation ceremony
and woke up late
lol
so got my cert
then went to pay my instalment
changed my engine oil
and in the evening went to abg bob's place
my anak sedara's 1st bday
and trailing after that
so now, i am getting ready to sleep
going to lenny's place later in the afternoon
pass her family zizi's wedding invitation

had some heart to heart talk with lenny over the phone just now
settled some issues which were gratifying
felt kinda good inside
only time will prove
tts the catch phrase of the century

so i said

camelia

didnt manage to blog yesterday
blogger was down
went johor on monday, nothing much happened

got to know a gerl frm tarian ,
i went to the PST training, and got to know camelia uh
tts all.
and so, i dont know whats happening
sigh
life is such a bore nowadays
dont ask me whats the plan next.?
u plan and tell me
i'll follow suit

just remembered this song..

'di kala ku keseorangan
kenangan pun datang menjelma lagi
terbayang saat-saat nan manis
ketika bersama dahulu

tak tertahan menanggung rindu
disaat ku berjauhan dari mu
wajahmu selalu datang menjelma
membuat teguhnya cintaku

oh sayangku hulurkan tanganmu
bersama kita bergandingan
berdua menuju arah
bahagia

melalui liku-liku kehidupan
pahit manis kita hadapi bersama
semoga kita berdua
berbahagia'

ahm no jiwang, but just letting it go ya
night peeps.
have an early date tmrw morning
::wink::

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rain, rain go away...

i am soo drenched
just came back from wan's birthday bbq at changi
well, friday was working, and then syated home for the night
the guys asked me out to wu bar,
no cash
sigh
and today i mean yesterday (sat)
work again, then to the pit uh
before werk, went to andika's chalet.
went swimming. and slacked around
and it was raining all the way
lyana was supposed to follow me to the bbq, but since it was raining, then i went by myself

contradiction
happens to everybody i guess
i can stand so tall at one moment,
but yet, that particular senario has happened to me
and i can be so nonchalant abt it
well, everything abt my life has been abt her,
so indirectly, whatever happens, place, time and moment, affects my behaviour and such

oh yah, did i tell u guys, i swallowed part of my stud the other day while having dinner with lyana
i swallowed the ball.
kehrerh
lincah2, lepas makan terus gi TM beli stud baru
lol, got myself a steel one

ok plans for today,
soccer at 4 plus
johor maybe with pizza hut TK guys at 8 or 9 plus.
then reggae night at 12
ok doh
sleep time


so i said

work's a bore

i skipped work on sunday
and today
told ma manager i had a fever
okay, i was feeling a bit queasy
and it was raining damn heavily
all that added up to me skipping work
enlistment date is nearing, and my eagerness to go to work dampens
just wanna slack around with ma boys
all of em'
be it pizza hut, panjy, or just anybody

things i have to do before ns

- play in another competition with panjy

- guide woodlands ring to 1st place in Piala Cilik

- either go bali or thailand for a short getaway

- do whatever is needed to my bike

- have somebody waiting fer me by the time i finish my ns

there, there
it should not be that difficult right??
i dont think so
ok gonna pass the time till 430.
wakey up her
she's werking at 7
contemplating whether i should send her to work
or fetch her from werk.
i have wdlands later, and its ending at 430pm, so i dont think i can fetch her
hmmZ
we'll see how it goes

so i said

promises are meant to be broken

sunday had kompang.
shahril's brother's wedding
we promised to meet up there since she and shahril were 2nd cousins
she and her parents uh
eventually, got a sms, saying she couldnt come.
only her parents were there
still, i didnt meet her parents
missed her family
but, i miss her the most
skipped work.
slept thru and woke up at 11 pm.
and went to hrc,
reggae night as usual

been dating sumbody these past few days
a certain yuliana
so guys, am i falling into another relationship?
blargh.
u can hit me if i say this is for real
but i think it is
shes nice,
shes decent

spent the day with her,
she was working split shifts, so 11am-6pm she was free
went fer a movie, and took a walk down fullerton.
talked a lot
hmm.
is it.?
i dont know

whatever naim

wdlands ring stint

i have had two trainings sessions with the wdlands ring kids
they are cute uh.
the proncipal is expecting them to go for the 1st place
since they were 2nd place last year
i'll try my best uh
ahm feeling a bit guilty with myselsef
ahm been missing haising trainings
sigh.
but i guess i have to let the new instructors take over.
well, it should be that way
me and hakim and din gg fer ns already
meeting them up tmrw for kompang
miss them uh
yah, panjy will be having a sentosa overnight outing on the 5th, 6th sept
and i'll be organising it
getting together fer the last time before most of us gg fer ns already
haiz..

werk just now was busy..~
but worth it
raked up 16 bucks in tips alone
wowee~~~~
ok doh
gonna wake up early
going johor with chemong.
get my contacts, grips. at angsana
see ya all.

'i miss waking up, anticipating the day ahead
your inquisitiveness, and calling yourself miss smarty,
as august the 9th dawns upon me, i find myself regretting losing you more and more,
saved a seat fer you, everywhere i go.
your laughter, smile,
makes me wallow in self pity
nowadays
remember me in your thoughts
cause i always do.'

so i said


so i stumbled onto a close friend's blog
and i really didnt mean to intrude, but on the contrary, i think i should
because?
he is my close friend.
been through a lot with him for the past 3 years plus
we meet almost everyday, had our fair share of misunderstandings, and been through good times together
but i discovered something in his blog, that puts me, or rather our group of friends apart from his personal life.
he thinks we take him for granted.
i know i dont
well, i know some people still busied themselves with silly insignificant relationship stuffs
and i cant be bothered
theres a limit to being caring for another party,
i mean i can be caring, anybody who knows me, i do take an interest in my freinds problems.
but not too excessive
to ppl who really know me, i'm not the sort who will ' jaga tepi kain orang '
sheesh
and sum ppl can get uptight abt being used as a part time confidante
ok maybe, that sucks.
but for me, personally, i have matured a lot in the past few years.
i accept whatever that comes my way. without much ado
ppl come and look me up,
i do my part
well, we are a group
and we are brothers,
so i dont mind.
to put it frankly, just be yourself.
i know i am.
come on friend.
let loose
you know i'm here
not necessarily me alone
theres panjy for you
but you and me, we do know that we have that unspoken understanding btwn us

ahm enlisting on the 20th of october
trying to grapple with fact that i'll be undergoing it alone
well, it has been this way since february
i'm meeting her again this sunday
which totals up to only twice since i broke up with her
i resign to the fact that she is sumone else's
frankly i wake up everyday, feeling disappointed with myself
partly because of what happened,
and the way i am going abt in my life
a fren of mine mentioned to me, i shouldnt be going around doing onto ppl whatever i wouldnt like ppl to be doing onto me
fathom that yourselves
god, i miss her
' i have no belief,
but i belive i'm a walking contradiction,
and i have have got no right,

hit and run and then i'll hit you again,
i'm a smart ass but i'm playing dumb. '

i have constant refutations with myself
help me.

wow, its been a few days
lots of things happened
wednesday thru saturday was filled with werk and trainings.
yeah, panjy won the competition, and we got throned as overall champions
:)
after the comp, went to ma cousin's place, ade party.
hehehe, and sunday, there was a show at bedok reservoir.
kite performed for mauludir rasul.
then werk at 6.
i overslept after returning frm the show
woke up at 630 ..
haha reached werk at 7.
after werk, balik mandi, then reggae!
hrc was happ.!
nice, yasser's band got a gig there
btw, yasser was my classmate in ite tampines
bushmen rocks also uh
chemong, yan, suherdy, karim, mohan, wan, tallman, saleh
happ gilers ah
yana and her fren was there too.
i got to tumpang yana's fren on e way back
haha
went to geylang for supper,
then east coast to chill.
so i just got back.
forgot to ask ima's no. eh ima is her name.
hehe!
when i sent her home, then it was like, in my head, i wanna sleep....
hahaha
ok doh.
me gonna slack now
see ya.
yehh....ooo yeh oh oh........