reminiscing

mengapa, tak seindah dulu,
sewaktu, kau bersamaku,
kau berjanji setia kepadaku,
mengapa kini berubah laku..

no subject for today's post,
overdosed on the last one.

i've done away with the the prodigal boys.
with all due respect, after all those times i've covered your asses
and this is how my good actions got repaid.?

and, i can accept it if you repeatedly spit on my face.
but not on panjy's.
and tts a double whammy for me.

all those years.
ever since some of you were in your damn school shorts.
i repeat, shorts.

pulled you guys out from the social misfits.
i wonder, if i had let you guys be..
would have been stabbed, or get yourselves thrown into the Boy's Home.
maybe.?

and another one.
the one that i love like he's my own blood.
late nights, clubbing, johor,
all in my good name.

did i ever said no.?

you ran away.
i went out, all night. all over the island.
for.?
looking for you .
and tt, even, i have to work early the next morning.

so you did some shit.
i had to come in between you and daddy.
became the guy who appeased your parents.
all for.?
you, boy.

and this is what i get.?

your eyes, are clouded by the thing called money, girls and glamour.and i know panjy can't offer you all that.

so by me saying, choose your friends well.,
i got a cryptic reply.

'hey, i dont need a friend who thinks he's always right.'

so it has come to that.

tell me.
where did i go wrong in guiding these guys.?

God, i lost 7 brothers.
my decision no doubt.
but, this heart have been disappointed yet again.

i'm not a perfect person, there's just so many things i wish i didn't do.

finish the rest.
i'm done with the whole lot of you.

biting the hands that feed you.

these cheeks went damp,

thanks you kid bros, for letting me be in your life. your frail life.

shall let the subjects do all the talking.

"passengers?" nah i don't think so..

mega perdana.
recipient of 'senikata harapan'
congrats Hakim.
you deserved it bro.

to say that we were just making up the numbers,
i truly believe that we had what it takes to be in the finals.
but not to win.
maybe.? but, since its our maiden voyage into the foray..
politics do play a part.

*shrugs

with this experience, lets hope we can do better next time.

i'm just too tired to blog uh.
life has been kinda hectic.

sumtimes, i feel tt i'm too busy even for MeGerL..
but in a way, i'm glad tt Perdana is over.
gonna slack .
but will miss the trainings and all.

*yawn
one day guys..
one day, we will be there.
insya-Allah.

bak nak tercabut tulang, dah melalak, urat sendi, betis mula rasa tegang..

we've tried.
no regrets ya?
night.